It all comes down to this

Tomorrow is the day when we find out if I have what it takes to pass this challenge. I think I can do it, but if I can't, then that's that. I tried my best, and if it wasn't meant to be, then it wasn't meant to be.

New stresses in life. New responsibilities. Is this how adults live? I hate growing up.

It's such a pain, and I haven't even started yet. I don't know if there are any payoffs for this. I guess we'll find out.

I just want to forget about it and move on...

...but...she’s right...

...I’m an idiot.

Happy?

Of course she's not happy with me. Who would be?

Emotions

I have no emotions. I am a machine. I am incapable of loving. I am incapable of thought. I am incapable of freedom. I am incapable of anything.

Successful

I guess some people are more talented than others.

I try. I give it, maybe not my all, but plenty enough of it. Why is it that others who don't even seem to try are more successful than me? Is it just a test, or is this the way life will be for me?

Lies...

"He had to lie to do that. He was a fake, careless bastard. You're genuine and loving and truthful. And sometimes the truth hurts but you make me happy and I love you .."

That's the truth...

"I still care about him because he was my friend. He helped me through everything. I don't know if I still have feelings for him as a friend or as something more than that, but it doesn't matter, because I'm with you, and I love you."